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9 December, 2009

Finals is Eating my Brains (or, at least my spare time)

Filed under: CMU news — Webmonarch @ 3:07 am

I’ll be a little light on posts for about another week, and then I will be back with my discussions on wedding ethics and the dialectics of Twlight. But for everyone suffering through finals, here is a little Zombie Apocalypse-inspired singing:

Jonathan Coulton’s awesome song is licensed under Creative Commons. So he is doubly fabulous.

I remember an insightful New York Times Opinion article back in April about how people scare themselves with zombies when they are anxious and with vampires when they feel flush. The writer argues:

Monster stories are a projection of our collective anxieties — and that may explain why in the current economic downturn, zombies are starting to catch up with the long-fashionable vampire. Vampires are sleek demons for good times. They suavely leach off society — like investment bankers who plunder outsize shares of deals for themselves or rapacious fund managers.

I guess Edward Cullen’s awkward, understated wealth makes him less of a “sleek demon”, and his vegetarian diet makes him less of a “leach” (no matter what Jacob Black says). Thus the success of Twilight as a blockbuster. Can anyone tell I saw New Moon this weekend and enjoyed it? :-D

Inspirational Quote:

“Politics is the business of getting power and privilege without possessing merit”—P J O’Rourke


1 December, 2009

Silly Cat Photos with Arabic Subtitles (for my oral presentation in Arabic)

Filed under: CMU-Qatar — Webmonarch @ 11:58 pm

The following is the visuals for my December 2nd oral presentation on “Something I Love” in Arabic I at Carnegie Mellon University (CMU). Here’s hoping this project comes in handy when chatting with some cat lover in Qatar.

All photos are by my step-dad, John Plocher, or my mom, Katy Dickinson. The two photos of the original Rudolph Valentino are from this website and this website.

Roughly, the presentation will go:

My cat lives in my family’s house in San Jose, CA (1st 3 photos)

His name is Rudolph Valentino

Not this Rudolph Valentino (2 images of 1920s sex symbol)

This one (Tino looking silly)

Tino is beautiful

Tino is sweet

Tino is stupid

Tino sleeps in the morning

Tino sleeps in the afternoon

Tino sleeps always

Tino lives in my step-dad’s office (3 photos of Tino on boxes)

This is my step-dad and my brother (photo with Tino at church)

My brother loves our two birds (3 photos of Simon and Garfunkle, our birds)

And our 2 dogs (1 photo of Romeo and Juliet)

Last slide, literal “I love my cat”.

That’s the best I can do with the vocabulary of a 3 year old. The Arabic words on each slide are just the key words–”my cat”, “Rudolph Valentino”, “beautiful”, “sweet”, “stupid”.

Inspirational Quote:

“What greater gift than the love of a cat?” – Charles Dickens

26 November, 2009

Guess What…

Filed under: CMU news, Wedding, politics-human rights — Webmonarch @ 8:42 pm

Jessica Dickinson Goodman and Matthew Alexander Holmes are Engaged!

I’m engaged!

We got our awesome, ethical and beautiful engagement rings at Turtle Love Committee.

More later!

Inspirational Quote:

“The goal in marriage is not to think alike, but to think together.”–Robert C. Dodds

“No distance of place or lapse of time can lessen the love of those who are thoroughly persuaded of each other’s worth.”  Robert Southey

“The first duty of love – is to listen.”  Paul Tillich

19 November, 2009

Criteria for Evaluating Law School

Law school.

Divorce and suicide factory. Gateway to where I want to be in 5 minutes or 5 years. A chance to do good. An open door. A long, painful slog.

A place to close your mind to the world and study. $300,000 in loans I will spend 10 years paying off.

A chance to shine, to be among crazily-geeky policy wonks and fellow intellectuals. An elitist club for preppy frat boys only looking to make 100k after 3L.

A terrifyingly hierarchical, obsessively graded 3 years.

A place to get joyously lost in the law, to delve into my core beliefs about justice, to find my true intellectual home.

Every time I talk to law students, I swing between these beliefs like an overly enthusiastic metronome. So many lawyers I hear about hate their careers, and are fundamentally unhappy with the work they do. Of the lawyers I know, including my awesome uncle Pete, most of them are doing good and tangibly helping people. They are roughly as happy as my friends who are working in Computer Science, and tend to get the chance to act on their core beliefs more often than your average programmer.

When I think of the days I watched lawyers at Human Rights USA call up clients, help them prepare to fight to stay in the United States I can see myself doing that for years at a time. When we casually discussed the relationship between the UN Convention on Human Rights with US law, that was fun then and can only get more fun the more I know about it.

When I watched the lawyers at Human Rights USA struggle to influence and huge, and sometimes intractable legal system, I could see myself burning out on it. When my fellow interns, all of whom were law students, talked about the predatory, aggressive law student and lawyers, constantly looking for a 1-up in the fight to make Law Review or Partner, I could see a community of people I never want to associate.

The daily work of a lawyer involves a pile of paperwork (bleh), research (fun!), stilted writing (ugg) suffused with ethical arguments (yay!).

I keep on hoping my choice for a career will seem simple and clear. I went to a panel yesterday, which I helped put on, where current law school applicants talked about their experiences. So many of them saw this as their obvious career choice.

But as I keep growing and exploring, I know that I can foment justice in a socially conscious start-up, getting grants for a non-profit, writing for a magazine, working in the international giving department of a major tech company, working for the United States State Department, teaching as a Professor–or yes, being a lawyer.

I know I can find work I love and that fits my passions, with or without law school. The question I am face with, which anyone who is introspective and applying to law school is faced with is: is this the best use of my talents?

Given the people I know I like to work with, the kind of work I like to do, and the impact I want to make in this world, is law the only place I can find my true home? No. The best place?

That’s a question I am still working on.

Inspirational Quote:

You see, I’d recently committed to a non-negotiable understanding with myself. I’d committed to “The End of Suffering.” I’d finally managed to exile the voices in my head that told me my personal happiness was only as good as my outward success, rooted in things that were often outside my control. I’d seen the insanity of that equation and decided to take responsibility for my own happiness. And I mean all of it.

–Those Aren’t Fighting Words, Dear.

15 November, 2009

Identifying Positions of Privilege

Filed under: CMU news, Career — Webmonarch @ 7:53 pm

In a recent class discussion, I called out a classmate for pontificating on women’s issues from a position of privilege. He was arguing that women are never discouraged from studying Computer Science because he had never seen it happen.

To me, privilege is about not thinking about how other people (people without my privilege) see the world. After that class, I started trying to think about what kinds of privilege I have that I am not conscious of (I am pretty conscious of my “white privilege” and “heterosexual privilege“). I tried to think about times every day when I inconvenience people unnecessarily because I assume they are like me in this privilege.

My biggest privilege? Height.

This is not an uncommon privilege, and it is one with measurable benefits: Tall people make $789 more per inch per year, and are 90% more likely to ascend to the CEO chairs of Fortune 500 Companies, according to Arianne Cohen, author of The Tall Book.” says blogger and entrepreneur Penelope Trunk.

My housemates probably suffer more than anyone else because of this privilege, every time I put at the good tupperware on the top shelf, or the garbage bags on the top right of our deep pantry, or the brown sugar on top of the flour, right at my eye height but signifigantly above the heads of most of my housemates. I work on my bike, assuming they can use it–then remember it is the wrong size. I offer to lend them dresses–but realize formal gowns for my 5′8″ frame will not work for my 5′0″ friend.

The weirdest place when I caught myself exercising this privilege was when we were recently decorating our dining-room with Firefly posters. I wanted to hang them so the focus of the poster was at my eye-height, which is approximately an inch higher than my co-hanger’s heads. We had to negotiate their height so no one would feel hunched or dwarfed over breakfast (low posters feel like low ceilings to me, and high posters make everyone feel like children in our own home).

I feel a responsibility to examine my positions of privilege, because then I will understand how other people enact their privilege, and what I can do about it. For an awesome examination of male privilege, check out Charlotte Perkins Gilman’s “If I Were a Man”.

Inspirational Quote:

The heights by great men reached and kept,
Were not attained by sudden flight,
But they, while their companions slept,
Were toiling upward in the night.

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow, 1858

10 November, 2009

10 Tiny Things to Make Your Resume Better (from the perspective of a grant-giver)

Filed under: CMU news, Career — Webmonarch @ 7:23 pm

I reviewed close to 30 resumes and applications for a program of which I am a member (I’m keeping details obscured for the privacy of the applicants). I am currently sitting, waiting for my next interviewee to show up.

In reading those resumes, I have developed a list of 10 things I will be doing differently for my resume.

  1. Change your objective to fit the job! It is quite difficult to remain neutral on (much less become supportive of) an applicants application which stated their objective was to “Gain an Internship in the Financial Sector”. Real people have to read your resumes, make it as easy as possible.
  2. Delete “Operating Systems” if all you know is OSX and Vista. I simply do not care. Now, if you run your own home-brewed Linux distro, or even Open Solaris or Red Hat, that tells me something about you. For any job I am going to be applying for, saying I can use the world’s two most popular operating systems should be as irrelevant as saying I speak English clearly. It should be a given.
  3. Delete “Relevant Coursework” if it isn’t relevant
  4. Make skimming easy. Give me clear headings with short bullets. Keep the font around 12–reading resume after resume is hard on the eyes, and you want to make it easy to like you for a position.
  5. Delete “Software” if it isn’t relevant, which it absolutely is not if you are applying for a travel grant. The presence of this section was my litmus-test for determining whether an applicant had bothered to customize her resume for the application. Also, even if you are applying for an internship where the software is relevant, unless you know something more than Microsoft Word and Excel, do not tell me. I don’t care.
  6. Don’t say “references availible upon request”. Of course they are.
  7. Give me space for notes on your resume. Say I am reading your resume, and I see you worked at Stanford Libraries when you were an undergrad there. I want to write a note to myself–”See if she knows Rachel”–but can’t, because you filled every availible inch of your resume with text. Too bad for you.
  8. Keep your fonts simple. Times New Roman in bold, underlined and italics, with 1-3 sizes of font for different headers is fine. Unless you are a confident graphic designer, and sometimes even then, you show more class with simplicity than with decorative typesetting.
  9. Use numbers. “Quadrupled the number of client stories on website”, “Managed portfolio of over $100,000 in assets”, “Built social media presence which brought in over $1000 in 3 days, 3 months after internship completed”. These are much more powerful than banal paragraphs about your impact on ROI or contribution to a project. Give me numbers.
  10. Include locations of past jobs. Perhaps this is not necessary for all applications, but this is a small way of advertising your network. If you’ve worked in Washington DC, Palo Alto, San Francisco and Pittsburgh PA, your interviewer may know someone in those cities and feel connected to you.

Summary of 10 tiny tips to improve your resume:

Optimize for the job in front of you. Make it scannable. Advertise your network.

Keep up hope!

Inspirational Quote:

“Robert H. Schuller – “Tough times never last, but tough people do.”

3 Tips for Interviewing Effectively

Filed under: CMU news, Career — Webmonarch @ 6:43 pm

For the past few days, I have been interviewing candidates for a program I am in with a grant associated with it. In those few days, I have learned more about effective interviewing than in all my interviews combined. Here is what I’ve learned:

  1. Be prepared with: 1) a 10 second pitch which you are passionate about, 2) a clear narrative about why you want the job/to join the program for which you are applying, 3) 1-3 really insightful questions about the organization/position
  2. When interviewing, exude confidence and passion–there is nothing more boring in a day of interviews than someone who looks tired, uncommitted or uninterested (if you are an introvert, like me, try to see the interview as a chance to spread information and learn. It is an exchange, a teaching and a learning moment).
  3. Address the questions you are asked seriously, and give solid details and examples. Bland does not sell, neither do generalities. The only candidates who have knocked me off my feet have given me insight into the problems my group works on.

Final tip: tact is always appreciated! No matter how unbiased you interview team is, pointing out a major issues with the organization’s strategy is best done politely. We’re only people, and hurting our feelings cannot help your candidacy.

Inspirational Quote:

“Second, probably the single greatest personal intellectual epiphany I’ve had since leaving academia is that the real world actually has interesting problems: not just problems that you ought to deal with because life as we know it could get pretty screwed up if we don’t, but problems that are actually intellectually engaging, make use of the cognitive muscles you developed in academia, force you to develop new abilities, and expose you to interesting questions you would never have discovered otherwise. The assumption that academia is where people grapple with interesting questions, and the business world is where stupid things happen, is just wrong.”–Alex Soojung-Kim Pang

5 November, 2009

Sometimes Life Demands Haiku

Filed under: CMU news — Webmonarch @ 12:42 am

On Tuesday I was sitting in one of my classes and, having used up my self-allotted number of theory fights for that class period, I was bored. Instead of doing my todo list (which has gotten much shorter than last time I posted about it), I wrote haiku all over the professor’s handouts.

This is not to imply that I wasn’t paying attention–I continued to contribute throughout the class, but as soon as the professor had answered my point and moved on in his lecture, I started working on my haikus again. Sometimes, on high energy-low outlet days, I try to find creative outlets rather than get frustrated in class.

Here are my 3 best:

Rushing faster, wheels
thrumming, stuck leaf slip-slapping
quick—brake! Goddamn squirrel.

Procrastinating:
Hoping I’ll work faster if
I’m running scared

Study or read for
pleasure? I must study, but–
Cryptonomicon
.

And here are 3 I am still working on:

My teacher’s kid is
sick. “in-shallah.” My dress is
pretty. “in-shallah.”

My hips settle on
the hard practice-room stool. I
plunk a note–joy reigns.

Sugar, milk, butter
& eggs. Mix by hand then add
dry ingredients

Inspirational Quotes:

“I cannot endure to waste anything as precious as autumn sunshine by staying in the house. So I spend almost all the daylight hours in the open air.”–Nathaniel Hawthorne

29 October, 2009

Shameless Self-Promotion (but I’m proud of myself!)

Filed under: CMU news — Webmonarch @ 11:23 am

A few weeks ago, friends and family caught sight of an article in Carnegie Mellon Today about yours truly’s trip to the Presidential Inauguration last January and authorship of a photo used on the cover of the magazine of the Special Libraries Association. Because Carnegie Mellon Today does not post their old issues until the end of the month, I couldn’t link to that article until now. I’m famous! Yay!

Inspirational Quote:

Robert Cialdini: Taking on too much

Over the stretch of my professional years, I’d say my most nagging error has involved an inability to gauge correctly the point at which the next possible undertaking – or even golden opportunity – should be firmly rejected. Whenever I’ve allowed one-too-many responsibilities onto my plate, everything – including the new item – has suffered from the overcrowding. With that threshold crossed, I’ve no longer had the time or patience to plan, think, or toil hard enough to be proud of the resultant work. If I had a single piece of advice for young researchers, it would be to create and follow a rule for avoiding this state of affairs. The rule could involve something objective (e.g., never exceeding a specific quota of research involvements) or subjective (e.g., avoiding the feeling of rushing to, from, and through all of one’s commitments). The key is to apply the rule ruthlessly. Anything less would be another form of error.

Dr Robert Cialdini, a social psychologist at Arizona State University, is the most widely cited expert on influence and persuasion alive today. His most recent book is Yes! 50 Scientifically Proven Ways To Be Persuasive.

27 October, 2009

Prayers for a Friend

Filed under: Faith — Webmonarch @ 10:46 pm

I believe in the power of prayer. I pray to regain my internal balance, and I find that it helps me regulate my complex and occasionally consternating internal life.

I also believe in the power of prayer, perhaps even (dare I say so California a word), the power of energy to heal. I believe when a group of people concentrate their love and attention on someone, that love aids that person in living their life well and fully.

Recently, a man with whom I have shared every birthday since 7th grade, became dangerously injured in a long-boarding accident. He is in a medically-induced coma, fighting an infection as we speak. However God is spelled in your faith, or even if you have no faith but great power of mind, I ask you to pray for him.

I rarely ask anything of my readers, and so you know this is a case I care deeply about. With his mother’s permission, I ask each of you to pray for Damian.

If you need a structured vision, below is one his mother created:

Do the visualizations/prayers/white-light-sendings every morning and every night. It helps me to know that you are out there, pulling with Damian. It helps me to know you’re out there every day, pulling quietly along with him, keeping him company. Tell other folks who might want to pull for him, too. Spread his information around! HBGB’s, church groups, covens, Intention Circles, whomever! Spread the activity to more good-energy people! Pull it all in for Damian!

For a moment as you read this, please imagine him whole and safe and free of his hospital bed and all it comes with. See him himself, fully-functioning and whole. See him well.

Damian and I have been friends since middle school, and he is one of the few people I expect to be friends with for the rest of my life. He is in my prayers daily, and I ask that he be in yours, if only for this moment.

Inspirational Quote:

[describing Peninsula, where Damian and I spent our formative years]

“Peninsula is unstructured in the same way that a medieval village is unstructured, which is to say it has a minimum of formal regulation but a ton of custom, and its residents are guided by an awareness that they have to get along because they’re going to be living together for a long time.”–Dr
Alex Soojung-Kim Pang, current Peninsula parent

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